If loving me was so hard and draining, I'm truly sorry for all the weight I added. I know I'm not the easiest to hold, not the easiest to understand. I regret all of the moments I've made it more difficult for you. I'm full of flaws and I'm full of contradictions. I'm sorry for the times I've tested you, I'm sorry for the stress I've caused and the exhaustion I've caused you. Please just know I never meant to cause any of it yet, I hope you see the love I was trying to give you, I'm sorry if loving me felt like a burden. With that said, I want you to know, even though it was hard I cherished every bit of love you've given me, & I'll always be endlessly grateful for you. I love you Tshilidzi